Sunday, December 28, 2008
LOL SPOT THE DIFFERENCE.
2 years. It just passes too fast for any sensible mind to comprehend, and I have always difficulties to try and grasp the quick reality that is passing through my fingers too quickly like sand falling out from my hand. My sec 1 photo at cultural pot, and the above photo where I was at the taiwan trip.
Sec 3 aint really had much of a memorable year for me. Falling grades, the inability to rise up to the expectations of mr tan, continuous pressure piled up on top of us as though its encouragement to us. How much longer must we suffer until we see the end of the tunnel and the shining beacon of light that warms and embraces us? What i know is, its coming very very soon, but the going gets much harder.
Band had been a roller-coaster ride for me. From hating it to the core at secondary 1, to going to every practice out of discipline at sec 2, to looking forward to going to it at sec 3. Time and circumstances change and mold people into what they might want or not want to be.
After all, the saying" all roads lead to rome" also applies very well in life: whichever path u take, u would have to eventually face death. Whether a smooth sailing life, or one that is constantly bumpy and have a lot of hurdles to cross, we have to reach the end. All i want is to live out of life well by enjoying things i want to do, yet studies is yet another part that i do NOT want to do.
Pls let 2009 november be over quickly so that i can enjoy the taste of freedom.
Friday, December 19, 2008
seems like so long i didnt post. later got piano lesson, so this is to fill up the blogRANDOM STUFF AHEAD.
1)I like disco party 3!
2)20th december so packed.
3)later then i post epic photo + post on vscb-nhsb outing which was DAYS ago. 3 days to be exact. I don't wish to talk about taiwan trip, lazy =P
Sunday, December 14, 2008
This post is gonna be quite a cheem one, so for u all who wants to know about band camp and taiwan trip details refer to the next post :DWhat i want to talk about is how many of us sec 3s suffered a great deal during the concert. Responsibility was being pushed around like nobody's business and yet, everything fell back to those who wield the most responsibility-the majors. All of us stayed up into the wee hours everyday to do administrative stuff and stayed together. Who could blame us for the lacklustre playing that we put up in the concert? Certainly nobody but ourselves. But how would we even bear to do that? We were too busy clearing up the concert booklet, clearing the emcee script, making edits here and there. And what about our practices? Sec 3s are supposed to lead the band in both skill in playing musically and also to lead in the administrative factor. We are the commanding batch, yet when the responsibility gets too big, the stress gets too overwhelming, we still have to hold the burden till the end is over. Many times we try to make things better, and what happens? We get labelled as idiots.
One prime example i would wish to honorably bring up is Benedict. Our Band major, he has been leading the band consistently with his other 3 majors. However, as the main leader, he bears nearly everything against administrative stuff, such as the conversing within teachers-in-charge, and many other things. He has only done us proud and wil lcontinue to do so. However, what happened in the R.O.D was a undoing of his continuous efforts to bring things together. Booking the auditorium, to get scolded by ms ban for no reason, and to add the cherry on top of the cream, he gets scolded by A.Tan because mr A. Tan himself did not read the proposal!? Its pratically ridiculous. And to add to that, he has to rush down to do the cake cutting and stuff. Even the ex majors had to FORCE him to eat dinner because he said he wanted to skip dinner to do administrative stuff. And to add to the blasphemy inflicted upon him, he was continuously insulted by our conductor because of his lacklustre playing.However, who could be blamed for that? he has been staying up late to do admin work, he dont even have the time to even attend a sectional to practice his parts and he has to command the band as a whole.
Nobody is to blame here. After running around for the WHOLE day, settling R.O.D, putting up performances, we were to have a late night practice when everybody was exhausted and tired. Speaking of which, I am quite proud that the band still managed to try to put their best foot forward, to try to listen to mr tan, to try to carry out everything he said. However, we still didn't meet his expectations. Who could blame him? As a conductor, he tries to deliver a good performance to that of the audience, and our lackluster playing that was 2 days before a concert was enough to give him the jitter bugs.
Even though mr tan has been giving us the resigned look during the concert, he still will be my most respected conductor, and will continue to be. However, over the years, the respect that i have for him has became mixed with a little dosage of fear, and i think that is the reason why we are distancing from mr tan. Look at angella. Her loud voice and brazen nature makes her quite attention-seeking at times,but yet that same trait makes her not fear mr tan, and is able to talk to him as a friend, confide in him as a teacher, and ask him for advice as a conductor. Edward and Liqiang or should i say, the whole gang is able to sit around him comfortably as a group and talk and laugh together. I am ashamed to say that i had witnessed many moments depicting that particular scene.
And at the concert. Many of us know about what happened, or maybe that of the one that is being passed around. Who could be blamed there? Nobody. And Mr Tan himself is not to be blamed either. Try having your concert botched up because one score suddenly went missing and the band before you does not have the courage to come in and play the parts properly. And then to add to that afterwards we have benedict yet again being glared at by 2 people. Everyone knew about the lacklustre performance we put up, and all of us know how unspirited we became right after the concert. Mr Tan came back to try to reassure us, putting up a big warm smile to try to tell us that since its happened already its okay. But yet, the stress still hits us,the guilt still hits us,and we will have to face it and be able to overcome it one day. Crestfallen we may be, we will stand up to face the challenge, with a radiant look to face the ends of the earth we may be.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Back from camp and concert.im EFFING tired right now, so details is another day :D
what i want to say is, i sincerely wish to thank those who went to the extra effort to go in and thank me for everything,even motivate me.
This camp has made me realise some things, and also made me learn much more.
The discrepancies of people around, how ______ is being pushed around, how some people may seem to be alright on the outside but within that hard exterior is a roiling cauldron of despair, sorrow, happiness, relief and guilt.
So much has happened today. The concert is over before we know it, and we know that although we tried our best, theres so much more to brush up on, so much more to work on, so much more to bolster that waning confidence within us that seems to make us quail whenever an audience is before us. What matters is what is over is over, and we should make sure that we would continue and persevere.
As they say, you would learn more from making a mistake then roughly making a success. As Mr Tan puts it, the problem is in front of you, and you would set ur mind to thinking : Why is the problem there? How am i able to solve it? Which solution would help to solve it? As long as we find the solution, problems can be solved.
There are also many sides to people. People who seem strong on the outside may be the direct opposite in the inside, and vice versa for that of those who seem unassuming in the outside. However different the personalities, we are working towards one goal together. As long as we play our part correctly, whether in band or in life, everything will fall smoothly and be plain sailing.
This post may be abit too long for u readers out there, but i thank you all for spending the time to read this lengthy post( if u even read it :D)
Lastly,i want to thank all those who came for the concert!!!thanks for supporting us!!!
TAIWAN,HERE I COME!
Monday, December 01, 2008
what an effing late time to post...im effing tired cause i effing slept at effing 2am ytd and woke up at effing 7.10,tmr i need to effing get to school at 7+...and i havent even effing slept yet.anw,on a lighter note,im going for band camp,then taiwan trip. Gosh,im gonna be goddamned xhausted then...
whoever want presents tag me :D i will look back on thursday when i return hahaha
WISH ME LUCK ON WARABE,CURRENTS AND LONGFORD LEGENDS!