Saturday, December 17, 2011
And i just realised i decided to let my emotions just overwhelm me
when everything was just some dumb misconception that continued to build up for no reason -_-
lets just hope my dumbness doesn't escalate to idiotic levels
Monday, December 12, 2011
Even though it may be too early to say this, i guess i have lingering affection for you haha.
Getting reminded by seeing anything is definitely not the way to go, especially if i know what is going to come next.
I just know that my life would never be the same again
Its pretty funny that im actually posting this even though i havent even really experienced a relationship lol, its as though im saying that i broke up.
Well i just know that that number would become a pretty significant number in my life anyway.
You probably would have not known this, but you have been a pretty significant part of my life( or being on my mind constantly)
I probably wouldn't find anyone as cute, as awesome as you.
But i still want to cling onto the hope that we might be able to go out together.
Till then, i will continuing believing.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
In this god-forsaken blog that nobody reads, i shall rant away endlessly
This feeling that has afflicted me during the week has probably made me felt worst during my entire life. Not given a direction to follow results in becoming a bird that has lost its sight and leads to senseless flailing in the darkness. The turmoil that continues to ravage has at least died down, but it is still ever-present, continuing to haunt me.
Yet again, the idiom "It takes two hands to clap" rings true. It doesn't matter that i finally convinced myself that i can surely give my all and commit into this relationship, but it probably took too long for me to actually decide on diving in. Now, our relationship has probably become so estranged that from good friends, we have devolved to strangers, or at best acquaintances. Delaying was probably a backfiring step, since i thought giving her more space to do what she wants would be best such that when it was all over she would be ready to have a relationship as well. Oh, the foolishness that encompasses my entire being.
Even if it seems nigh impossible now, I shall believe in that minute chance, the chance where I bump into her outside and try again. Even if I don't succeed, it would still be much better than this uncertain hell, where I am forced to make assumptions about certain actions and overanalysing certain things. The only thing I'm most afraid of is for my life to play out that we might actually have had mutual affection for each other, and due to my lack of balls we end up drifting away, which would cause people to facepalm if they were watching our lives as a movie.
I will believe, like how Shana believes in Yuji, like how Sanae prays for miracles, and like how Leta pulled off a miraculous TvT against Flash. I will.
Maybe when i grow older and look back at this post, i would laugh, saying how innocent i was back then. But for now, i would stand by this and confirm that I would still love you.
Monday, May 31, 2010
It feels as though this life of mine has lost everything already.
I feel like every part of me,every cell,every atom of me is made up of everyone that i meet around the world. From my best friends, to my seniors, i see a little part of them that makes up my character.
Everything has lost their interest value to me already. I have reached to a point in life where i can only complain about today while i know that tomorrow would be even worse.
At least i still could live out my life happily in secondary school. But now? Everything crashes on me, time bleeds out of my hands, everything just seems to go wrong at the worst possible time, stress creeps up on me like a living shadow, never gone, and all i could do is just to hang on. And like the inevitable case of a candle melting into wax fully, my grip will slip and all i would cherish would be lost.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
When bad luck hits you, don't expect to be able to get away from it quickly.
I should seriously go pray at the temple every weekend to ward off bad luck :/
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Don't think i have stuff to blog about today but.
Guess i didn't stick to my roots and joined band rofl.
The amount of time needed to commit would definitely kill me(since im already getting screwed by tests and the change in jc timetables.)
On another hand, nan hua band is playing kaze no mai for NBC!
Definitely would find one day to go down and check them out when i have the time.
Anybody from nanhua band wants to follow me?
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Im seriously appalled at the amount of selfish bastards the world holds nowadays
Like seriously, please take a look in the mirror before u do stuff like that.
Cant believe such people are living under this world
is it me
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